When does middle age start? Am I qualified to be middle aged? I mean, I'm over 35, so this very well might be the middle of my life, or the beginning of the middle of my life. Then again, I could get hit my a bus...
I'm not trying to be morbid. Not at all. Or fatalistic. I'm actually just trying to find a way to bring up the subject of... well, of being tired.
I'm tired. I'm tired a lot of the time. Every once and awhile I'll have a moment, or a stretch of time, a few hours, where I am not tired. I feel energized and awake and alert, and it's such a great feeling! I love it, and I want it to last forever.
But more and more often these days I am just exhausted. I want to laze about in bed and read or watch TV. I don't want to do anything but nap. I want to sleep late and fall asleep early.
I'm not sure why this is. I'm eating well, with the occasional cake binge. I'm sleeping enough. I'm working out. I don't think I'm working out too much. I'm not really under any unusual stress. But somehow it's all adding up. Last night I went to bed before 9 and still had to drag myself out of bed ten hours later. Even if I'm not middle aged, I feel old.
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Far be it for me to be giving advice about this, but a few friends of mine have given up caffeine (specifically coffee and soda. They tell me that after drudging through the withdrawal, they started going through the day with more energy than when they were drinking coffee and soda regularly. I've been thinking about doing it myself, but right now it seems impossible.
you are so not middle aged. it's called being a mother of three and living in the dark scourge that is new hampshire. you'll feel better when the daffodils turn up.
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